Deut 8:2-5 “And you shall remember that the Lord your God led you all the way these forty years in the wilderness, to humble you and test you, to know what was in your heart, whether you would keep His commandments or not. 3 So He humbled you, allowed you to hunger, and fed you with manna which you did not know nor did your fathers know, that He might make you know that man shall not live by bread alone; but man lives by every word that proceeds from the mouth of the Lord. 4 Your garments did not wear out on you, nor did your foot swell these forty years. 5 You should know in your heart that as a man chastens his son, so the Lord your God chastens you.”
If the brokenness of our spirit is not a self inflicted one, then there is a purpose that is intended by God through that brokenness. If we look at Hannah’s life again, God closed the womb and He opened the womb of Hannah and gave to the world a prophet who initiated a kingdom in Israel. Many can ask why He closed it in the first place.
Israelites also asked Moses, when God is leading us, why there is no water in the first place, why there is no food etc… God’s answer for all this is in Deut 8:2 “…to humble you and test you, to know what was in your heart, whether you would keep His commandments or not.” Hannah poured out her heart before the Lord and He saw it. He opened her womb because she reached out to Him. In the case of Israelites, they complained and rose against Moses and Aaron many times. Even though God saw their rebellious heart during this testing period, He still supplied all their wants. Humbling us and testing us is not to withhold the earthly blessings from us, but to see the intent of our heart, whether we are passing the test or not. If we pass then He will be pleased, if not then He still supplies our needs and wants but He might be disappointed and will say How long I shall bear with you?
This is the love of our Heavenly Father. He loves us that much, so He does not want any one of us to be dropped out from His kingdom. All these humbling and testing process is for a moment of time only. If we look at all the scriptures, brokenness in God’s children life is for a brief moment only, but in the end, it is very good for those who endured it. Today, if your spirit is broken and your heart is longing, reach out to the Lord leaning on His grace and He shall lift you up from this state to a place where your spirit will rejoice in the goodness of the LORD.